Damn she’s cute<3
Falling for someone, who doesn’t bother helping you back up..
I fell for you and everything was good. I was sure you felt the same, I was happy. The days spent with you, the moments where you caught me looking at you and smiled back. The feeling I got when our lips touched, I knew this was meant to be. You didn’t want to lose me and I didn’t want to lose you. You brightened my days, your smile made me forget my problems.Your voice was a soundtrack in my head that I never wanted to end. No matter how hard I tried to let you go I kept holding on having faith in us…. But he came along your old crush , my former friend… The sight of the two of you broke me.. I repaired as a jealous and depressed person. The way I saw you spending time with him instead of me, people telling me you two would hang out after school alone together. I tried to be cool with it but inside I was slowly being poisoned by the feelings of jealousy. You told me that their was nothing to worry about, I wanted to believe you, I just didn’t want to be hurt again like others before. Finally during class I saw you two walking together…. I snapped, I came to both of you I pushed him and yelled, I pushed him again. The thoughts of beating the shit out of him consumed me but the reaction of your face is one I never want to see again… The dean came and I was in the office. He asked me what was our situation I said ” This guy is trying to get at my girl” but the guy said you told him you were single…. That’s when my world came crashing down, the memories and time we spent didn’t seem to matter after those spoken words. I teared up as I was fighting with my overbearing sadness, I clenched my fist ready to punch him. The dean said ” It doesn’t matter if you beat him up, in the end she will chose who she wants”. I came to a realization. The dean told me to back off and so I tried. The image of your face, your voice, your smell, your eyes and your touch stuck in my head almost like an obsession. You knew I had strong feelings for you, but days passed and you still hung out with him. I was a walking corpse but I finally talked to you I asked” Do you still like me even through the crap I put you through or have I lost you?” You replied “I still like you”. On Wednesday I saw you at the mall. I couldn’t control my feelings. I was happy and sad as if a bittersweet moment, I was so nervous I tried not to talk fearing I would stutter but I couldn’t help looking at you, you’re so fucking cute. I asked if you like him and you promised me you didn’t. I asked if you wanted to hang out and you said yes, I smiled. Today it felt like you didn’t want to hang out, I felt that I was forcing you.. I didn’t want you to do anything you didn’t want to. You changed, you treat me as if I was nothing more to you than a toy. You say you like me but you treat me as if I was just another friend. I want to know the truth, I want to know how you really feel about me, iv’e been obsessing over this. If only you knew how I felt, if only you cared. I know you probably hung out with him again today while I was at football practice. But I trust you. I know you’ll eventually forget me and replace me with images of him. But for now I just want a sign that YOU really do care a sign that you really do still like me. As I type I’m thinking about you its insane. I really <333333 you, you’re important to me. I don’t want to let you go but if I have to I will. I just want a sign, all I want is a sign. Bye.
All I need is time to erase you from my Mind, Leave everything Behind and Forget I even thought you were Mine.
